In the very back of my mind, I would like to get married. I want all the pretty hair and makeup, and I love to plan things myself. But then I see all the marriages that I've been living around, and I feel like marriage would be a waste of time, money, and most importantly, emotions. My parents and my sister have AWFUL relationships. With my parents, some of my earliest memories are of them fighting. I'm almost positive that they're only still together to be financially stable and for me and my brother, but it's to the point where when they fight, it doesn't make me sad, it's just really annoying because they're both crabby for the rest of the day.
And then there's my sister and her husband. They had my nephew (who is now 5) on purpose before they got married, and they've been married for 4 years, but it's falling apart really quickly. My sister is super brutal on my brother-in-law and I always see her screaming at him to get another job, even though he has two, and she won't get one because she makes a ton of excuses yet spends $100 on a pair of jeans and $80 on a vest. Although in her defense, he got a ton of loans without telling her.
Things like this make it so that I'm 19 and never had a boyfriend because I see that and clam up whenever I think about it.
I'm not saying that ALL marriages are like that, but I can't predict the future, so who knows.
We met when I was 18 and he was 19. Moved in together at 21. Engaged at 22. Married at 23. Baby at 24. (and 27 and 29 and 30).
I've sort of always wanted a large family, but after watching too many TLC baby shows, I'm terrified at the prospect of pregnancy and childbirth. How was it for you?