long post, but that's the point of this thread, yes? xD
feeling pretty low atm, i am in the last 1.5 weeks of a hectic 14 week uni semester, having got glandular fever almost two months ago... the late nights doing assignments probably aren't doing anything to prevent potential chronic fatigue developing...
And something's been buzzing around my head all week, i've been overwhelmed with uni work but it was still there under the surface, and now that it's the weekend it's risen to the surface and is troubling me again.
i stayed at my close friend's house last week, after a small group of us were out on the town, returning back still quite drunk in order to sleep, my friend and her housemate/gf/ex-gf/idon'tevenknow (all of these being the same person xD) had a domestic which lasted several hours, ending with a trip to the hospital for all of us at 4am so she could get stitches after punching through a glass window in frustration. i couldn't get my earphones and i couldn't sleep, so i heard the whole conversation. so awkward :/
my friend is a really touchy-feely person and does not have a lot of limits regarding physical contact in public, hence she is always very close to me in public, even when her housemate is there, and i don't know if its because she is just messing around or trying to get back at her housemate. it's really not fair of her either, because i told her that i liked her several months ago (having no idea wether she was with housemate or not at the time) and it's kinda difficult to handle the situation, not knowing if she's intentionally leading me on, in order to mess with housemate (who knows i like friend, but also knows i'm not interested in being with someone outside a relationship).
it feels like i'm being claimed by friend, not enough to consider it a relationship, but enough that it would be inappropriate friend behaviour if i was in a romantic relationship with a different person. i don't really know what to do here....