Things are going to get better for me. I've decided they have to, and I've taken several pro-active steps towards this end today. I'm going to make this work. I have an interview for a temp agency tomorrow, and I just went to talk to the manager of a bar I'd like to work at, which went well until I awkwardly stammered 'nice to meet you' twice consecutively, but she said she'd call me by the end of the week and I'm going to follow it up, so hopefully I get a trial. Booked a meeting for an interest-free emergency loan to cover my rent next week, and put my cv in at a bunch of places. Maybe I'm just still in that early phase before I lose hope, but I feel like things will be better this time around since I've gained a little bit of work experience and a new reference, and have a new qualification.