everything, anything that has to do with guys confuses me >_<
i think too much
get out of my head!
nah, it's true though. guys and thinking. blaaaagh
yesterday i had an amazing day with thomas, and i know he doesn't feel anything for me, but it was so much fun and time passed sooooo quickly that all of a sudden we were both looking at the hour and went "oh fuck, you/i missed your/my last bus home by two and a half hour", so we decided that i would stay over because he lives to far away to go on foot. so i got to sleep in his waterbed, while he offered to sleep on a crappy mattress. this morning we both woke up at basically the same time and he said "i dreamt we were going out"
it confuses the hell out of me. i don't know what to do, because clearly i still have feelings for him, but i also have sort of very possible feelings for another guy, and i know for a fact that he likes me. Anyway, this guy i've only met twice before, but we could talk and have a decent conversation for a few hours, and we did have a great deal of fun. and he made me feel rather uncomfortable, but a good kind of uncomfortable, if you get what i mean. well, i got the feeling he liked me in those hours we spent together, and after that i always had a few days of trouble getting him out of my head. of course my feeling could've been totally wrong. but then our mutual friend started saying things like "so, you and maarten are getting along quite fine" (in a 'wiggling eyebrows' kind of way) "you like him don't you", which i denied. and then 2 days ago, i saw the mutual friend again, and again he said things like "hey anne, why don't you "play", maarten *wiggling eyebrows*", so i said things like "why should i? why would i "play" maarten, as you like to put it?" and then he was all "come on, don't you think he's cute or handsome or whatever you like to call it"
and it is driving me motherfucking crazy, BECAUSE I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO!
i don't know, this probably should've been in the gush about your crush thread. whatever. aargh