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Amanda Palmer

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Re: THE MONTH-LONG WAGON THREAD
« Reply #240 on: February 02, 2013, 09:48:56 PM »

Well. I didn't just fall off. I jumped off and got dragged under the wheels for two days. The unmolested bottle of cab lies ravished in the recycling bin, along with some lesser pals.

Yes, there's a reason - or an excuse. But it doesn't matter what the reason is, because I can always find a reason.

The terrifying part is facing the reason without the crutch. Avoiding pain doesn't change pain; it changes me.

I do want to be more sober in general, and during this time in particular. I just don't know if I can stand to be sharp and clear when sharp and clear is agonizing.

Tomorrow is another chance.

yep.

one day at a time.

don't think grandiose.

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Re: THE MONTH-LONG WAGON THREAD
« Reply #241 on: February 02, 2013, 10:19:36 PM »

you'll probably all hate me but i am not finding it hard at all to abstain from alcohol or shit food. i need to find something else, actually maybe i need to do the opposite, not drink booze and eat shit food, but eat more and drink more water because i don't do enough of either.
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Re: THE MONTH-LONG WAGON THREAD
« Reply #242 on: February 02, 2013, 10:30:19 PM »

Well. I didn't just fall off. I jumped off and got dragged under the wheels for two days. The unmolested bottle of cab lies ravished in the recycling bin, along with some lesser pals.

Yes, there's a reason - or an excuse. But it doesn't matter what the reason is, because I can always find a reason.

The terrifying part is facing the reason without the crutch. Avoiding pain doesn't change pain; it changes me.

I do want to be more sober in general, and during this time in particular. I just don't know if I can stand to be sharp and clear when sharp and clear is agonizing.

Tomorrow is another chance.

Basia, I don't know what you're going through. Clearly a lot.

But for what it's worth, what you've said here goes a long way towards helping me understand my mom right now.

That's obviously not what your post is about, and I'm not trying to make it about me. I just want to say thanks for being able to say what it feels like, and put your feelings out there like this.

I'm sending you the best of best wishes. If you want to talk, send me a PM.
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Re: THE MONTH-LONG WAGON THREAD
« Reply #243 on: February 02, 2013, 10:35:38 PM »

there's distraction and there's connection.

it's so hard to tell them apart.

Is there such a thing as too much connection? Even if it is positive connection?
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Re: THE MONTH-LONG WAGON THREAD
« Reply #244 on: February 02, 2013, 10:38:23 PM »

there's distraction and there's connection.

it's so hard to tell them apart.

Is there such a thing as too much connection? Even if it is positive connection?

I think that's what codependence is. Although that's negative. All good things can turn bad though.

If I'm over-posting tonight, by the way, just tell me to shut up. I'm in on a Saturday night because I'm sick and I'm just staring at the internet, waiting for it to do something. Speaking of too much of a good thing.
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Re: THE MONTH-LONG WAGON THREAD
« Reply #245 on: February 02, 2013, 10:44:27 PM »

there's distraction and there's connection.

it's so hard to tell them apart.

Is there such a thing as too much connection? Even if it is positive connection?

I think that's what codependence is. Although that's negative. All good things can turn bad though.

If I'm over-posting tonight, by the way, just tell me to shut up. I'm in on a Saturday night because I'm sick and I'm just staring at the internet, waiting for it to do something. Speaking of too much of a good thing.

You're fine. Since I have no Facebook, I'm over tweeting. We gotta cope. LOL
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Re: THE MONTH-LONG WAGON THREAD
« Reply #246 on: February 02, 2013, 10:53:26 PM »

there's distraction and there's connection.

it's so hard to tell them apart.

Is there such a thing as too much connection? Even if it is positive connection?

I think that's what codependence is. Although that's negative. All good things can turn bad though.

If I'm over-posting tonight, by the way, just tell me to shut up. I'm in on a Saturday night because I'm sick and I'm just staring at the internet, waiting for it to do something. Speaking of too much of a good thing.

You're fine. Since I have no Facebook, I'm over tweeting. We gotta cope. LOL

Me too. Well, not tweeting so much as willing others to tweet with my brain (it isn't working). And replying to tweets more often than usual.
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Re: THE MONTH-LONG WAGON THREAD
« Reply #247 on: February 02, 2013, 11:02:32 PM »

Me too. Well, not tweeting so much as willing others to tweet with my brain (it isn't working). And replying to tweets more often than usual.

What's your Twitter handle? Always looking for AFP friends on there. Mine is focusfoxx.
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Re: THE MONTH-LONG WAGON THREAD
« Reply #248 on: February 02, 2013, 11:04:24 PM »

@iamshaeon. Just followed you.
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Re: THE MONTH-LONG WAGON THREAD
« Reply #249 on: February 02, 2013, 11:57:32 PM »

Day 2 and a Sober Wedding was survived.  Onto tea.  Nighttime recipe:

Chamomile
Lemon Balm
Valerian
Skullcap
 
Luck to us All
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Re: THE MONTH-LONG WAGON THREAD
« Reply #250 on: February 03, 2013, 08:27:16 AM »

there's distraction and there's connection.

it's so hard to tell them apart.

Is there such a thing as too much connection? Even if it is positive connection?

I think it's different for each person. It's not a problem for many people. I just want to strike a balance between the social time and the creative time. I'm neither introverted nor extroverted.

Considering my full time job and commute, and there's not a lot of time left for either, so I really need that balance.
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Re: THE MONTH-LONG WAGON THREAD
« Reply #251 on: February 03, 2013, 09:22:20 AM »

there's distraction and there's connection.

it's so hard to tell them apart.

on this thread, it's connection and support:

but there is so much foggy muddle in the middle
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Re: THE MONTH-LONG WAGON THREAD
« Reply #252 on: February 03, 2013, 09:28:38 AM »

is sniffing wine OK?

it's been my habit to smell and taste a tablespoon of every open bottle of wine that crosses my path.  enough are sublime enough ...

i gave that up for #thewagon month,
but last night,
there were five bottles and five sniffs ...



yes, that's mostly symbolic, so ...

i'm a clutter bug.

while talking with a friend Friday,
I decided to stop adding to the boxes and piles in my home,
and then start getting rid of much of it,
and organizing the rest.

i'll check in about that once a week ...
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Re: THE MONTH-LONG WAGON THREAD
« Reply #253 on: February 03, 2013, 02:10:00 PM »

how are all you off-of-facebook people doing? I'm enjoying it.

facebook is like the worst book I've ever read. the characters do not evolve one bit and the plot is going nowhere.
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« Reply #254 on: February 03, 2013, 02:26:40 PM »

Day 6, y'all. So far, so good. Getting less twitchy, more weepy. Sleeping better. Writing more. Not necessarily writing better, but not writing drunk angry bullshit. I think part of my problem is the isolation of living in the middle of nowhere, 3,000 miles away from friends and family, in a town of 400 people. If you could call it a town, even. It's really just a sign by the road and a post office. So I'm glad you guys are here. Hugs. For real, so many hugs.
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