Fucking stop stomping around the house throwing a goddamned bitchfit because a few little tiny things haven't gone your way and your blood sugar is low and you can't act like a fucking adult person and eat something or ignore the little things and take a few deep breaths and control yourself. How fucking old are you? Come on, really?!
Let's see how loudly we can do the dishes! Let's see how violently we can make pumpkin bread, and how much of a screaming smashing pans horrid little brat fest we can throw when it doesn't turn out because GODFORBIDYOULETMEHELPYOUGREASETHEFUCKINGPAN! Let's martyr ourself by not eating, so we can continue to be a crazygoddamnedcunt and feel justified, even though we KNOWIT'SWHATISMAKINGUSBECRAZY! Let's clean instead! Godforbid we eat like a responsible rational person! Let's just be all around fucking retarded! Let's make the tiny apartment a miserable place to be! Let's scare the animals! Let's refuse to stop acting like a hormonal teeanger, even though we're a full grown adult!
Really. REALLY. I'm about to leave. I can't handle the noise, and I can't handle your ridiculous and misplaced anger. And me yelling at you to stop being crazy and eat something may or may not have helped.
And if you start throwing things I'm getting in my car and going to a bookstore until I know you're gone.
Shit like this trips me out and I don't like dealing with it. It puts me on edge. It makes me feel like I need to be ready to fight something. It's called the fight or flight mechanism and I shouldn't have to feel like this in my own apartment. You should be fucking mature enough to not act this way. The only time I've *EVER* lost control like this is when I was on a medication that acted as a stimulant. EVER. You are not on stimulants. You have not been taking drugs. You are not a fucking crazy shitfaced whore most of the time, so what the fuck is wrong with you?
And the solution is so fucking simple - FIX YOURSELF A SANDWHICH. Or act like a juvenille little twat, whatfuckingever, but if you don't apologize this time I swear to god I am not just forgiving and forgetting. Sick of this shit.
Fucking crazy.
- Lena