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Re: Jennifer
« Reply #45 on: March 15, 2009, 11:24:25 PM »




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Re: Jennifer
« Reply #46 on: March 16, 2009, 10:32:02 AM »

She does seem almost familiar. But I have just spent a day going through her old posts, trying to get a better picture of someone I cannot expect a PM back from...

Thankyou for sharing that other picture, Devery.
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Re: Jennifer
« Reply #47 on: March 21, 2009, 03:30:02 AM »

I've come in too late to know Jennifer or even be familiar with her writing, but I'll catch up, so I can know, too. My condolences to all of you who knew and loved her so well.
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Re: Jennifer
« Reply #48 on: March 21, 2009, 06:51:28 AM »

I've come in too late to know Jennifer or even be familiar with her writing, but I'll catch up, so I can know, too. My condolences to all of you who knew and loved her so well.

Yeah, same. how sad. :(
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Re: Jennifer
« Reply #49 on: April 06, 2009, 01:46:23 PM »

Sarah wrote a speech for Jennifer, which Audrey read out at her art exhibition. For those who wish to see it, I have uploaded it at http://vimeo.com/4026553.
The password is Jennifer's username, 'preferpencil'.

I miss her still and I barely knew her.
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Re: Jennifer
« Reply #50 on: April 21, 2009, 11:31:15 AM »

Thankyou for passing that on, Sarah
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Re: Jennifer
« Reply #51 on: April 22, 2009, 03:08:23 PM »

Part of an email I just received from Jennifer's sister, Marilyn:

"One of her dear, life-long friends said that Jenny would have wanted us to reach out to each other, comfort each other and then continue celebrating life.  I believe she is right.  So to honor my sister I will ask you and all of her on-line & poetry friends to do the same.  Please pass on this message to anyone who might grieve.  Jenny touched so many with humor and love – we can do the same."


Let's enjoy our time on Earth! I, for one, will aspire to be the kind of person Jen would be proud of.  We only get one chance, we all have the ability to be as influential as Jennifer always was.

Love to all.







1700 plus miles later, I am back from the memorial for Jenny and would like to share the memorial card.  Carole Anne (wifey)and I were privileged to stay at Marilyn's house and get to know her and her husband and two awesome sons.  Jenny's college roommate told very funny and teary stories about Jenny, including the first day of softball practice with a very serious Jenny diving all over the gym floor and the two of them singing karaoke to Aretha Franklin's "Respect".  It might surprise many here on the Shadowbox to learn that our beloved preferpencil, The Poet, had received a college softball scholarship.  Many of her college teammates were there.  Jenny would have cried herself to see how much she was loved.  I spoke a little bit about my friendship with Jenny and read her poem "in the a.m" (she named it "Frost" in her own poetry archives).  Marilyn read her poem she had written about her younger sister; it was beautiful and when I can find the right format to open it from her email I'll post it here. 

I am so glad I made the effort to go.  In some ways, it provided a bit of closure, but the next day, as we started home, I found that I was missing Jenny more than ever.
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Re: Jennifer
« Reply #52 on: April 27, 2009, 12:14:21 PM »

Marilyn read her poem she had written about her younger sister; it was beautiful and when I can find the right format to open it from her email I'll post it here. 



My Little Sister Jenny Leigh

Childhood

I observed her from afar,
Separated by Seven,
-Thrashing the Imaginary Foe
-Objecting to Pink and Taffeta
-Rejecting her, Rejecting him
A whirling dust cloud,
she could hit, catch, spit and slide.
The tiniest, most determined,
dirty pair of shoes.
A Spitfire
announcing
This is WRONG!
and
That is WRONG!
and
Nothing was ever right.
and
SEE ME!
please…
please…
Can you see me?

But – verbs are not solid.
 

University

So she swung and slung and danced.
Inserted Q-Tips and Cigarettes
and other unspeakable things.
Playful Shennanigans.
Antics on the Edge.
And
Never
Ending
Yearning…
For soft, pink lips
For the defenseless, unbathed, thrashing man
For cool, blue eyes
For discarded, mangy beasts
For a woman
 

The End

Zapped by lightening.
Ripped to shreds.
Pieced together by white coats
with opium soaked band aids.
When parts fell off,
Fentanyl glue.
The sterile smell from hospital walls
released the birds she had known as a child.
They flew out through her fingertips.
She pasted these swallows, doves and chickadees to paper.
A decade of birds and band aids.
Scrambled eggs did not help.
It was all she could do.
So, supported by splints
she wrapped up in 1,000 mg of medical tape
and became
Preferred Pencil
with no breath
no movement
no sound.
My sister
became a noun.
Now she was.
 
So we placed our pencil in the Viking Fire
sailing on the Susquehanna
with the licorice stick
and thought
I wish.
I wish.
I wish…

I wish you could have had more laughs.
I wish you could have known more love.
I wish you could have parted the dark clouds
to see the crisp blue sky.
I wish you could have learned to trample
the demons
that pulled out your toenails.
Trample them with your cowboy boots
Kick them in their shins
like you did to Mary Beth Banta
For Christ’s Sake.
Then you could turn on your rootin’ tootin’ heels
Skip merrily away,
to be the carefree child
throwing stones in the river.
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Re: Jennifer
« Reply #53 on: February 25, 2010, 11:44:44 AM »


Tuesday (February 23) would have been Jenny's 39th birthday.  It's hard to believe that it's been almost a year since she left us.  I've been thinking of her a lot lately, especially this week.  Jenny's mother scanned for me her poems from her high school literary magazine, of which she was editor ( of course she was!), and I thought I would share them.












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Re: Jennifer
« Reply #54 on: February 25, 2010, 11:38:44 PM »

Thank you.

I think of Jennifer more than I have ever thought of anyone I didn't "really" know. 

I miss her too.
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Re: Jennifer
« Reply #55 on: March 07, 2010, 12:19:57 AM »

I was just looking back over this thread (I hadn't seen it when it first showed up, I didn't learn of Jenny's passing until back in June, I think). It's almost the first anniversary...

It feels so strange. I didn't know her too well, but I remember we had a few fond exchanges, just here and there.
I think she gives me a little more faith in humanity. I mean, I wasn't the nicest person when I first came to this thread back in '06. But I remember she would always have some little joke or some helpful insight. And I think Jenny helped to shape me into a better person somehow, even if only in a small way.

We love you, Jenny.
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Re: Jennifer
« Reply #56 on: November 02, 2012, 03:22:17 AM »

i miss her so much.

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